January is such a special time for our family. January 11th 2011
(yep 1-11-11 love that) Brandon and I walked into a care center in
Ethiopia empty handed and walked out with our son! When we walked out of
the door of LHouse I can honestly say we had no clue what was to come.
We had read many books. We thought we "got it" and in a few ways we
did, but in so many many ways we had (and still have of course) a lot to
learn.
Three years later we have an incredible almost
4.5 year old on our hands... seriously, less than one month until M is
4.5. The "half" is so important at this age. He has been asking if he
is 4.5 since about 3 days after turning 4.
M has learned
so much in the last year. I am amazed by all that he knows, says and
thinks. Sometimes it feels like he is a little adult housed in the body
of a 4 year old (almost 4.5 of course). I want to take some time to
fill you all in on my much loved little man. This info will include a
mix strengths and growth area, of dreams and reality. As I often state
in this blog, this is our families scrap book/year book so while
something things are more ground breaking than others they are all a
part of our story.
So much to say...
M
loves sports and being "sporty." The soon to come photo blog posts
will show how obvious this love is even more. He loves to play sports,
watch sports, talk about sports, and in general just look sporty. He
ONLY wears sporty clothes. Seriously, if it doesn't have all ball on it,
he won't wear it! He has not had a leg in a pair of 3T jeans, no need I
guess. We have found every potential sporty pair of pants in his hand
me downs and he wears 2T, 3T, and 4T. Yes, the 2T's are short and the
4T's are long... but this doesn't matter to him a single bit. There is
one exception to his wardrobe uniform, church. He loves to dress like
Daddy for church so he wears dress pants and a button down shirt.
Sometimes he needs to take sport clothes for after church, but sometimes
he is dressy all the way until we are in our home. Once home he strips
in lightening speed. It should also be noted that even though we live
in the frozen North, M insists on wearing shorts and T's shirts whenever
we are indoors. He is perfectly fine with changing clothes 5 plus
times a day if needed so that he can wear his summer clothes indoors.
He received a "real" according to him football uniform for Christmas.
This uniform gets put on at least once most days as well.
Besides
wearing the gear, this year M has learned to pedal a bike very well.
He is a great football thrower. He can cast a fishing pole with style
(maybe fishing isn't a sport). He LOVES to slide down the "fire pole"
(support pole) in our basement. He recently learned to skip (well only
on one side). He is a fast runner. He has great form and intense facial expressions while running. His athletic abilities amaze me. He is such a natural.
It will be interesting to see if there is a particular sport he will
excel at later in life.
M is still a singer! He LOVES
to sing. Recently he has enjoyed singing Christmas Carols. Of course
they have his own twist on most of the lyrics. He also loves to sing
the songs from Sound of Music. He is a junkie. He not only sings, but
does a lot of the hand motions done in the motion picture. So excited to
see him on stage some day.
M is a student... he just
doesn't know it. Actually attending his one morning a week of "school"
(Classical Conversations) isn't super easy for M. He is too busy to sit
and listen. This might change in 2014... who knows. I do know that
even though he doesn't sit so well in class, the CD's (music again) have
taught him SO much this year. He knows the History Timeline from
Creation to Jesus very well and far beyond that with quite a bit of
accuracy. He knows the US Presidents, many history sentences, some
grammar rules, some Latin conjugation, some science facts, Continents
and many countries/bodies of water on maps etc. He has also greatly
improved in his letter/sound recognition and number recognition. He can
tell time with some accuracy on a non-digital clock. He LOVES big
words and uses words like "apparently" every chance he can. He has no
idea how he has learned any of these things. If I sit down to "do
school" with him he freezes, but if I bring school to our every day life
he learns so very quickly it is shocking. He continues to love doing
presentations (show and tell) during CC.
M loves
to watch. He has an addictive personality when it comes to anything
with a screen. We went from limiting computer time (you tube time) to
eliminating it. The deep desire for "just one more" was too strong. We
try to limit videos he watches as well. He has recently discovered
Little House on the Prairie. OK, so part of me is floored that he loves
this show. Sadly though he always wants one more episode. Unlike "The
Pond" which has convenient 15ish minute episodes on DVD, Little House
is over 40 minutes long. The show has been helpful while we have all
been battling some winter bugs at our home. Of course it is much
shorter than Sound of Music. M was on a kick where he wanted to watch
all 3 hours of SoM every day. Luckily he is now content to listen to
the music from it as we drive in the van. Whew.
M
loves to be outside. The winter feels long, but summer days will
return... right? We live outdoors as much as possible. Before the
weather turned cold we spent a lot of time outdoors this winter as
well. Maybe with warmer weather we will get the sled out once again. M
learned to sled solo this winter. He conquered much fear in doing it.
We enjoyed many walks with our friends this summer and many many trips
to area parks. M finally feels confident on "big boy swings" which
makes life easier as this frees up a small swing for little sister...
although she wants to do just what big brother does.
M
love books. He is still my (pre)reader. He will sit and listen to me
read for literally hours. He loves collection books which contain
several stories in them. I sometimes cry a little inside when he brings
them to the couch because I know we will be reading all 8 Curious
George stories and it will count as "one" book. Seriously though, I
love reading to M and I love the way he processes what we read and makes
connections with things he hears throughout the day.
Some things were a bit harder and some things were really really hard this year. Warning... if you like feel good stuff, stop reading now.
M
became a big brother. It is a big job to be a big brother. It is a
big change too. Some of his buddies added kids to their families, but
they added babies. M added a little sister who is very busy. From day
one she has grabbed his toys and taken over his space. He went from
being the "only" and the subject of all my attention during the day to
sharing mommy... no sharing is fun for a four year old, but for my
little man, sharing mommy is about the hardest thing to share. After a
few weeks things started getting better in the sibling area, but this
fall/winter thing have sort of spiraled downhill.
M
deals with much trauma. We are just beginning to learn and understand
more about how early trauma affects the brain. Wow! I would encourage
you if you are curious about this to research some of the trauma work of
Heather Forbes, Bryan Post, Karyn Purvis (Empowered to Connect) and Daniel Siegel.
You can simply click on their names to check out their websites. You
will be blown away as you learn about the parts of the brain and how
critical the early stages of life are. A child's life experiences in
the womb and the first year so very deeply affect their ability to deal
normally with life. This short article
and image of a "trauma tree" might be very beneficial for anyone who
might be confused because M was so young when he came to us surely he
doesn't remember, right? Wrong. Pre-verbal memories are powerful
friends. I touched on some of this in my traumaversary post which you
can read HERE.
The thing is, M's issues were so much more and deeper than "November
issues." As we read and pray and grow in our parenting we can see him
responding in a very typical way based on the trauma he has
experienced.
M is teaching us. Wow have we learned a
lot! We learned so much about what doesn't work in parenting.
Consequences, Logic, Control, Rewards etc all come up short. Seriously,
the authors I mentioned above are incredible. If you are an adoptive
parent and you have not read Heather Forbes, order her Beyond
Consequences, Logic, and Control TODAY!
Every technique I
learned in my parent/education training is pointless... oh how I hope
parent educators today area learning how to deal with trauma kiddos.
The incredible things about every thing I have learned about parenting
ripped out from under me is that I have been and continue to be broken
and humbled in ways I never thought possible. I have realized ways that
I continually make parenting and being a good mom and idol... even if I
was failing at parenting I made it an idol. I recently saw the quote
below and found it so powerful in my adoption parenting journey. Author unknown.
"Just think, without adoption we would have believed we were still good
parents. We would have been able to look at ourselves and not see the
really ugly mess hidden under the surface. Some people live their whole
lives without discovering the beastly parts of their parenting, never
knowing it's in there, deep inside under the surface. God has chosen to
bless us by revealing the dark things we never thought we were capable
of feeling/doing through adoption. We may be surprised by the way we
feel or the way we respond, but God isn't. He knew we were capable of
this the whole time."
Yes, God has shown us MUCH!
Once
we adapted a new focus in our parenting we began to see the reasons
behind M's actions and in many situations we were able to help him
succeed. Love replaced fear in our parenting and in our lives. We knew
we still needed a lot of help, but we were moving in the right
direction. Working with a parenting coach has been a source of great
insight and encouragement for both of us. It is such a huge blessing to
partner with Brandon through the yuck. I know many "trauma mamas" who
are going it alone and I am so very blessed to be on this roller coaster
with my incredible husband. We recently decided to embark on another
level of parenting trauma kids. We hope to begin EMDR therapy
with M soon. Check out the link to learn more about this therapy. We
are praying that this therapy will be highly beneficial for M and for
our family.
There is great Hope my friends! We
believe that God can renew M's mind. I continually think of the
incredible ways that God answered prayers during our time bringing T
home and I would love to share some requests with you here. I know in
many ways I have been vague as I have shared. While the requests might
be somewhat general, I would be very happy to talk with you about more
of these issues if you have any questions.
Prayer Requests:
1.
Our whole family will choose Love and not Fear. When we have fear our
parenting voices change, our reactions are quicker and more harsh and a
fear cycle unfolds. Love is patient, kind...
2. Safety! Pray that God would protect our Sweet T physically and emotionally from words and actions while M is dysregulated.
3.
Trauma Healing! Pray that God would bring healing to M's heart through
our love, his therapy, and are fervent prayers. Pray for more and more
times of regulation each day.
4. Joy each day! Being a trauma parent or child or sibling is HARD. Pray that we will seek joy and choose joy.
5.
Strength! Pray that Brandon and I will cling to Jesus for our strength
and also to each other, that we will continue to be on the same page.
6. Sweet sleep! Our family is always in need of prayers along these lines.
7. God would be glorified as we parent and love M and T and as we advocate for M and T within the counseling community.
Wow
friends and family, for those few brave souls that read this whole post
(maybe with a bathroom break or two mixed in, right?) Thank you! Your
love and support for our family is obvious in your willingness to read
all of this.
We feel incredibly blessed to be surrounded
by such great friends in this process. While many of our friends can't
relate, they have not been scared away. They are willing to go into the
trenches with us and it ministers so deeply to us that they would do
this. Our family has also been incredible and supportive. Who are we
to be so blessed?! Our God fills provides new mercies each day... and
we need them. His grace is sufficient!
M is an
incredible boy with incredible potential. He is deeply loved by family
and friends and we are all on his team as he deals with this trauma. We
are excited to see all the ways that M learns and grows during his
fourth year in our family. Jesus is victorious dear friends!
***
Random things I forgot to say...
When M is regulated he is an incredible big brother. He makes T laugh and is a huge help and even a comfort to her. They play and share together and my heart swells with joy and pride.
The other thing relates to Melatonin. M takes it every night and it has become a lifesaver for our family. His 3 hour falling asleep routine has changed to just 20 minutes now that he takes melatonin about one hour before sleep.
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